I want to take a moment to apologize;
I haven’t been myself lately.
I want to apologize for falling off track, not taking the time for myself to feel like myself.
I've got a 4.0 GPA, I’ve been showing up at work to do my job, I’ve been keeping up on bills, and I’m trying my damn best to stay updated on current events.
I’m not saying sorry to you, or anyone else taking the time to read this.
I’m saying sorry to me.
I can be so hard on myself. It used to be “sometimes,” but now it seems like I’m constantly putting myself down.
I don’t speak openly about my struggles. Yes, I tend to overshare some aspects of my life, but when it comes down to it… I don’t feel like I can fully be myself without scaring people away.
So, I’m sorry for being like this. I’m sorry that I put myself down; make myself feel out of my own control. And I’m sorry that you feel like you must keep saying sorry.
And now, I accept my own apology and I move forward. I continue to strive for the future. I’ll continue to view the world through the same rose-colored glasses I so love to look through…
I just need to clean them off.
For me, I promise, I’ll be better.